JULIET THE MANIAC
By Juliet Escoria
Adolescent women function beneath a minimum of two pernicious mythologies: first, that the content material of their lives is unserious (crushes! cosmetics! curfew!), and second, that there’s a associated cap on their potential to undergo. Popular tradition tells them that they are going to endure, at most, romantic yearnings for doltish boys, or the double-binding disgrace of being known as both undesirable or a slut. Whatever capability for darkness these circumstances would possibly permit, each the circumstances and the capability exist to be outgrown.
From Plath to Didion to Ottessa Moshfegh, a small but highly effective cadre of ladies have deployed their literary expertise to push again towards these myths, dignifying feminine adolescence with unsparing darkness, and excoriating the gaslighting that leads teenage women to imagine there’s something improper with them if their souls aren’t half-size.
Juliet Escoria’s autofictive debut novel, “Juliet the Maniac,” is a worthy new entry in that pantheon of deconstruction. Told in a sequence of fragments spanning the teenage years during which bipolar Juliet’s life unravels, it’s a narrative that insists by itself severity.
Juliet’s degree of common depth could make Martin Amis characters learn like prudes. There are mushrooms and intercourse, ketamine and weapons, axes and pink rock opium, “four lines and two shots.” Good capsules, unhealthy capsules. Pills that develop into merely a matter of dosages and intention.
But Juliet is not any depravity fetishist. Her exterior depth stems from a higher depth inside. Dissociation, mania, hallucinations and voices stalk her round home events and biology lessons. Her trauma, she explains, is herself.
Juliet seeks assist with an earnestness that chafes towards the parable of psychological wellness as a matter of outreach. After writing her dad and mom a letter (“I keep hearing noises that I know aren’t really there. … I keep seeing things that aren’t really there”), Juliet is dispatched to a therapist. “They love you very much,” the therapist says of her dad and mom after studying the letter. “I know,” Juliet replies. “So what’s the problem?” the therapist asks.
Rendered successfully mute on the topic of her personal struggling, Juliet slides into an escalating sequence of self-destructive extracurriculars, culminating in two suicide makes an attempt, after which she is recognized as bipolar, closely medicated and shipped off to a boarding faculty for troubled youngsters.
Her sickness lastly acknowledged, Juliet learns how little capability the world has to take care of it. Reach out to pals, professionals counsel, however many of Juliet’s pals are terrible. Try antidepressants. The antidepressants don’t anti-depress, and one is later found to induce suicidal ideation. Check your self in someplace. The hospital confiscates shoelaces that might be became nooses, overlooking curtains and towels.
Self as trauma is obvious within the novel’s bones. Reading her staccato, impressionistic fragments — with headings like “GIFTED AND TALENTED,” “SEX TAPE,” “VOID” — is like mainlining chaos: Juliet’s life has not been well mannered sufficient for chapters. Paratextual proof — scans of hospital studies, letters to her dad and mom (“I’m sorry”), affected person logs — belies a latent expectation of diminution. This was me, the paperwork insist. It was unhealthy. We already imagine her, and as a outcome, the paperwork merely ache.
But it seems that Juliet remembers grace and good will together with the knives and tubes and panic and blood. A trainer’s hand wrapped round her personal. A card “full of inside jokes and compliments.” Benevolent trauma bonds. With her first boyfriend — bipolar, alcoholic, bulimic, a cutter — she feels “the magnets locking us in place, simple as science.” Of geriatric males at A.A.: “The generations between us were nothing; there was something in him that also existed in me.”
This collapse of demographic boundaries is one of trauma’s solely presents, and one which turns into more and more evident because the narrative progresses. Juliet’s “dark thing” by no means recedes for good. But her steadiness of consideration shifts as she expunges her previous, an accelerating assortment of mild cracks piercing the darkish. The resultant magnificence isn’t with out its problems, however it’s as dazzling as Juliet’s world throughout one of her higher hallucinations — neon spiders, pores and skin made of glitter — and the furthest factor from fantasy.